EDIT - I've listed some of my paintings and ACEOa

so if you're interested, do check it out!:
I am consantly selling new things on eBay. Here's a link to my auctions if you are interested in the things i design:[link]Sometimes I think that I'm actually just telling myself that I'm doing all I can. I'm actually loosing lots of time doing nothing, or sitting around on the internet. It's really irritating me and I must try harder. I know that. Damn... If you want to get somewhere in any kind of art you have to give it all you got. I'm not saying there is NO time for fun, because that would be unrealistic, but you have to try and make goals you want to achieve. I'm a very sociable person, but art is actually quite a lonely thing, I can't really socialise much, when in an art_making_frenzy. I guess that's good. To try to not rely too much on others and think about yourself. It's another thing that is hard for me, as I really enjoy company, but it stops me from being focused and if you want to make art your life, not only your sidedish, you have to put your mind to it. I don't really know what's happening to me at home. I can't paint at all, even though in the halls I also have a computer, so it's not that, I could be painting 12 hours a day or more. I am happy about designing and photography, my mom is a fantastic seamstress, understands my ideas, is willing to change stuff if I say so, but also has talent of her own, so working together is pure joy. But something about home keeps me unfocused. That's very irritating, since I'm trying to put together as many designs as possible, so I can leave them also for after christmas.
I'm trying to develop this 'being for the sake of yourself'. Not for anyone else. Of course it's fantastic to know you have friends or a partner, but I guess I'll be trying to think about myself more.
Over and out. Congrats to anyone who managed to read it
